BECAUSE

Because that night I did what I hadn't done in years.

Because I guess I just didn't think well.

I just wanted to have fun.

Because you had left me and he was there.

Because I didn't think well. I just wanted to have fun.

Because I trusted in destiny that night as so many other times.

I cannot believe I did it.

It was all confusing.

We had drunk so much.

He was there as so many other times.

He asked why not to do it and I couldn't find reasons not to do it.

It's been three months since that happened. He had forgotten the whole thing and I didn't even remember that stupid night.

It was a fucking mistake but I wanted to do it.

I was angry. You had left me.

You said you regret you had met me. You said nobody needed someone like me and thanks to that I can realize nobody needs someone like me.

It's been crazy all this time lived with you. We've got a fight every two weeks. We go from love to hate; we go from happiness to anger.

I start having headaches every time I try to dump you. I start to wait for your call so I reach for my cell phone every two minutes to see if you have at least sent a message so can go back together.  I get so anxious that I start to listen to my cell phone’s ring tone even when it doesn't ring.

You know I loved you. I love you; you know I planned my life with you because I would never find someone better for me than you.

Because it's a lot to ask I know but I've done many things for you.

I lent you money when you needed it.

I've been patient. I waited months for you to start loving me and stop using me as your sex tool.

Because it's a lot to ask I know but I've forgiven you many times.

I've suffered for you but I've given you many chances 'cause I always end up believing we can make it together.

Because I don’t want to miss you.

Because I don’t want to loose you.

Because it’s not so hard to tell your family the baby is not yours.

Because I want you in my life forever.

Because it’s a lot to ask I know but it might be a nice experience.

Because we can take this as something else we’ve got to pass trough.

Because you had left me.

Do you remember when you slept with that woman and I forgave you only because you said you loved me.

Sometimes we act like a couple of animals.

Sometimes we are so rational and we can be forgiving.

Sometimes we are so violent we each other.

Sometimes we are so thoughtful.

Because your hands feel so refreshing in my skin.

Because your life make my life easier.

Because if you say you don’t want to race a child who exists thanks to me and some friend of us

I will understand.

Because it’s a lot to ask I know but could you please don’t leave.

Because I know it’s a lot to ask but could you please don’t erase me from your life.

Could you please stop looking at me with such anger!

Because after all I’m not asking you to love me, I’m asking you not to hate me.